Still at it

Still at the biggest dilator. Getting it in 1/4 of the way. Still giving myself until June 6th before I go back to the doctor.

It's been a while

I know it's been a while since I last posted, I was just trying to make more progress. I have continued to do the exercises every couple of days. I decided a few posts back that I was going to have to get the 4th dilator out and use it. I had previously thought that if I just got comfortable enough with the third, I would be able to have sex. But, that's not the case. I have moved through dilator three and can now get it in most of the time with ease and little discomfort. I have even moved on to the 4th and biggest dilator. I was able to get it in about 2/5 of the way in tonight. I still feel like I'm making progress. Slow progress, but progress. June 6th will be one year since the surgery. That is my new deadline. If I haven't had sex by then, I'm making an appointment with a physical therapist.Until next time...
Franny

V Day

Happy Valentine's Day!
After trying pretty unsucessfully to try and have sex two nights last week, I've decided to go back to the dilators. I did however order female condoms and vaginal contraceptive insertions because I think they will make things easier when I feel I can try again.

Yesterday and Today

Yesterday I decided to just leave dilator two in instead of doing my regular exercises. It went pretty well. I left it in for about 20 minutes and it didn't hurt at all. Today, I went ahead with my regular exercises. Again I inserted two and three. They both went in all the way. Dilator three still hurt some and felt about the same. However, it feels a lot better when I'm done. I don't feel sore at all. So, I think I'm making progress...

A little bit easier

I can tell the exercises are getting a little bit easier. Tonight, I went right in with dilator two. I didn't have to use the mirror to line it up. I feel like it's becoming easier to put them in and out. I don't have to spend as much time lining up the dilators. Two went in pretty easy. So, I moved on to number three. Again, I did it without a mirror. It was a little bit harder. I got it in about halfway through and it hurt so I took it out. I decided to try again with lining it up with the mirror. It went in easier. It still kind of hurt though. But, I do feel like it's getting a little bit easier.

4

I did more exercises tonight. I did one, two and three. They all went in pretty good. Three hurt, but not as much.

Love, husband and vaginismus

My husband and I did more of my exercises today and made more progress. I really feel that we are on the way to having a healthy sexual relationship and maybe one day children. He has loved me through eight years of this.