You guys

I just wanted to say THANK YOU for the comments from the other women who commented on blog that are going through this.
You and others like us are the reason I'm writing this blog.
As for the man or woman who keeps posting negative comments, you can stop. You are never going to change my mind. I will continue to do treatment for vaginismus until I'm cured. or dead.
P.S. You suck, Myupaki! You rock, Fernie, Maggie and JochebedJames!

Heart Attacks are Wack

Hello!
Sorry it's been a week--my dad had a heart attack! :(
He's home now and doing fine, but its been a crazy week.
On to the dilators:
Today:
Dilator 1: All the way in--easy
Dilator 2: All the way in--easy
Dilator 3: Hard..it hurt..it went all of the way in, but I had to take it out as soon as it got in.
Tomorrow:
Meeting After work: no exercises
Wednesday:
Do it all over again!

*I'm on the last dilator! All I have to do is get to where it doesn't hurt!!*

40-Love

YAAYY! I got the last dilator I'm using all the way in tonight. I started out with the two smaller ones, got them in without any problems and then started in with number three. It went in fairly easily, but it hurt so I had to take it out immediately. I tried to put it in again, but it hurt too much and I had to take it out halfway through. But, I'm still pretty pumped about it! Now, I just have to get to the point where it goes in easily!
So, the dilator v. me score is 3-0 or in tennis terms 40-Love.
P.S. I beat my husband in six out of 10 matches of tennis! haha. win sauce!

I've never gone this far before

I made it halfway through the last dilator! This is as far as I have gotten in this process. It didn't hurt as much as I thought it would during. But, I did feel dizzy and light headed during. I am more sore now than I usually am though. I also found two good all-natural lubes that don't burn.
Yays!

I'm allergic to KY

I can't use KY. I can't use regular. I can't use sensitive. It burns. After a two-week break, I started the exercises again today. I didn't have problems pushing it in, it just burned too much to continue.
I'll get more lube and try again.

Moving On Up

I moved up to dilator three today! I was only able to get it in a little, but that's a success! Once I complete dilator three and can get it in with ease, I think I will be able to start trying to have sex!Yeah!
News Resolution: Have sex!

Ovarian Cancer Awareness Month!

Hello,

First off, December is the month for Ovarian Cancer Awareness. Please visit www.ovariancancer.org to donate! Ovarian cancer is one of the most deadly cancers. Only 39 percent of women diagnosed survive 10 years!!!
This is a very important issue to me because it runs in my family.
On another note,
I am still make relative progress with the dilators. I can insert dilator two with no pain. I tried three today and could only barely barely get it in. So, I went back to two and started working on moving it in circles and moving it in and out.Hopefully, that will help stretch me, so three will be easier.
It has been almost six month now...