Nov. 28

I'm still making progress on dilator 2. :)

Still here

Hey,

I'm still here and still working. I went back down to dilator two and have had some progress. I was able to get it in tonight with barely feeling it. Once I can do that comfortabley multiple times, I will move back up to dilator three. Once I can do that with dilator three, I should be good to go.
It's been about five and a half months. It may be taking longer than I thought,but I will accomplish this goal!

Try and Try and Try again

I try and try and try again and still can't get past 1/4 of the way in on the last one I'm going to use. I can do the one before it just fine,but the last one hurts so much.
I'm just going to try and try and try again, I guess.

3/4 a dilator away!

I've been working and it's been hard, but I think I'm getting closer. I've gotten the last dilator I'm going to use 1/4 of the way in. I'm hoping once it gets all of the way in, I'll be able to have sex!
I actually tried this weekend but, couldn't get it in at all and couldn't even find a position that I thought might work.
I've been having some trouble lately, but I think I'm back on my way!
My goal is still Mid-December.

Still working at it!

Still on dilator 3...
I've only been trying about once a week because I've been so busy at work. But, I'm making a vow to try at least 3 times a week from now on. Plus, my husband is able to play a more active role now because his job demands have slowed down. So, I'm hoping I will be able to have sex by mid-December. That is when our anniversary is. I don't want to go another anniversary without being able to have sex...

Will this ever end?

Two steps back. I was only able to get dilator 3 in 1/4 of the way tonight. It hurts. I suck. I fail.

It's like I'm always stuck in second gear

I am stuck. I'm stuck on dilator 3. I can get it halfway in, but no further. It goes in easily. It doesn't hurt, but I get it about halfway in and it's like I hit a wall. I can't go any further. It has been like this for about three weeks. I'm stuck. And, being stuck makes me dread doing it and makes me put it off. Sometimes I still feel like It's never going to happen. It doesn't hurt anymore. I just can't.
I'm stuck in a place where my husband can't go back to college because I can't find a job that pays enough to support us.
I'm stuck in this crappy town because I can't find a job to take me out of it.
It's like I'm always stuck in second gear.