Sunday, September 26, 2010

It's like I'm always stuck in second gear

I am stuck. I'm stuck on dilator 3. I can get it halfway in, but no further. It goes in easily. It doesn't hurt, but I get it about halfway in and it's like I hit a wall. I can't go any further. It has been like this for about three weeks. I'm stuck. And, being stuck makes me dread doing it and makes me put it off. Sometimes I still feel like It's never going to happen. It doesn't hurt anymore. I just can't.
I'm stuck in a place where my husband can't go back to college because I can't find a job that pays enough to support us.
I'm stuck in this crappy town because I can't find a job to take me out of it.
It's like I'm always stuck in second gear.