Monday, February 14, 2011

V Day

Happy Valentine's Day!
After trying pretty unsucessfully to try and have sex two nights last week, I've decided to go back to the dilators. I did however order female condoms and vaginal contraceptive insertions because I think they will make things easier when I feel I can try again.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Yesterday and Today

Yesterday I decided to just leave dilator two in instead of doing my regular exercises. It went pretty well. I left it in for about 20 minutes and it didn't hurt at all. Today, I went ahead with my regular exercises. Again I inserted two and three. They both went in all the way. Dilator three still hurt some and felt about the same. However, it feels a lot better when I'm done. I don't feel sore at all. So, I think I'm making progress...

Monday, February 7, 2011

A little bit easier

I can tell the exercises are getting a little bit easier. Tonight, I went right in with dilator two. I didn't have to use the mirror to line it up. I feel like it's becoming easier to put them in and out. I don't have to spend as much time lining up the dilators. Two went in pretty easy. So, I moved on to number three. Again, I did it without a mirror. It was a little bit harder. I got it in about halfway through and it hurt so I took it out. I decided to try again with lining it up with the mirror. It went in easier. It still kind of hurt though. But, I do feel like it's getting a little bit easier.

Saturday, February 5, 2011


I did more exercises tonight. I did one, two and three. They all went in pretty good. Three hurt, but not as much.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Love, husband and vaginismus

My husband and I did more of my exercises today and made more progress. I really feel that we are on the way to having a healthy sexual relationship and maybe one day children. He has loved me through eight years of this.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011


It's very hard for me to understand why anyone would have a problem with someone trying to have a sexual relationship with their spouse. Yet, I am being continually harassed by someone who tells me, "God doesn't want you to have sex."

Genesis 1:28. God blessed them and said to them, "Be fruitful and increase in number; fill the earth and subdue it. Rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air and over every living creature that moves on the ground."

Matthew 19:6 Since they are no longer two but one, let no one separate them, for God has joined them together.

Song of Solomon is completely dedicated to the love of a husband and wife and their expression of that love. 6:3 I am my lover's and my lover is mine.

Fist Corinthians 7:4-5 . The husband should fulfill his marital duty to his wife, and likewise the wife to her husband. The wife's body does not belong to her alone but also to her husband. In the same way, the husband's body does not belong to him alone but also to his wife.

So in fact, I believe God does want me to have sex. I believe my intact hymen is a medical issue that is no different than my mother having cancer. But, there are people out there who think my mother should just die and go through treatment, I guess.